If I find out this was meant for me, I'll still refuse to cope.

Can’t express what hurts so bad
It will rip me apart
Won’t address what drives me mad
It’s tearing out the heart
That isn’t meant to bend that way
That isn’t bent to mend that day
When it snaps, I know I’ll break
Another relapse, so much at stake
So much pressure
So much to lose
And yet I can’t measure
My own issues

Goodbye would be best
Goodbye would be worst
I can’t digest…
What has immersed
The failure will hurt
Look what I’ve began
Won’t find comfort
In what others can
Melt away the pain
The effort I’ve made
I know it’s all in vain
With that, let the ambition fade

What is left to do?
Everything’s been taken
How is an apology still due?
I think that you’re mistaken
Out of my control
I’ve got to let it go
What the years really stole
Learn to tell myself no
Stop my heart
And windows shatter
Another start
That doesn’t matter