When It Comes

When it hits
it hits hard.
Back to ever tear
and every reason to be scarred.
A feeling long burried
soon begins to creep
Emotions take over
and soon the tears start to seep.
Things that seem so simple
do not seem it anymore.
Things have grown so complicated
and all I want is to return to the before.
Everything's gone hazey and my head is spinning.
I for certain have gone crazy
and in this game, i'm not the player winning.
I feel like I'm sinking into this never ending hole...
and as much as I describe it, no one will ever know.
I feel so lost and confused
like i am just watching the world go by.
just the bystander there left to wonder why.
yes there may be company
but it never seems enough.
I don't know what is happening but
i do know this'll be rough...