The Empty Shell i've Become

Note: Let me just note a few things before you read: Though this speaks of stolen innocence, this poem is not about rape, at least not of a sexual nature. also this is not in reference to my parents, i love them dearly and all they've ever done was sacrificed for me and my brother. I will not go into details about the meaning.. I will say that sometimes people can do horrible things to good people out of spite.. Even sometimes family, and the things they do can cause so much suffering for no reason. One last thing, in reference to the pills.. due to the events that this poem speaks of, i've suffered from depression since i was a child, and i've been battling with myself over the idea of possibly taking anti-depressant meds.. i later decided not to go on these things due to the effects they can have on the mind, but when i wrote this poem, i was strongly considering it. Since this poem i have improved greatly, finding somone who i've learned to trust and care for and recieve those feeling back.
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Nightmares of childhood come on fast..

The scars from them forever last..

I cannot take these thoughts of past..

And with these memories i begin to crash..

Oh give me the pill.. The pill of deceit..

I want the artificial happiness to make me feel complete..

Spare me the pain and bring me the prescription for joy..

Make me feel normal..

Even if it's just a ploy.

Robbed me of my innocence..

Took everything i had..

Humiliated my family and i.. made me want to die..

I cry..

The images still burned into my mind..

The pain doesn't ease with time..

No longer the child-sunshine..

No longer ignorance divine.

I am a shell of what i once was or could have been..

I trust no one..

I have no friends..

What you did to me will never mend..

The damage you caused you can never comprehend..

I will never feel truly complete again..