There's a terror behind those eyes

I try to visualize what's not in front of my eyes
Only to realize that this fucking disguise
Is wearing off like an andrenaline high, feeling sky high
Falling and failing like a half blown balloon,
Losing air and patience like a patient at the doctors at noon
He won't see me, hear me,or check me out
So to hell with my problems and my self image doubt.

I'll never forget you or what you taught me
The half hour power, the blame and those who fought me
Fought me off like the siege of troy, you broke down these walls of
inferiority and found the boy, a boy who's too modest and mellow
To comprehend what you said so fucking enjoy this like jell-o.

There's a hunger in your mind and in your voice
Cutting out choice pieces of meat made of me and what i stand for
I stand for what i believe is truth, i don't need a congregation, sermon
or a steeple nailed down on my roof.
I'm my own church of sacrafice and salvation, brutalized like the lamb
Lord help me! Oh you're out on vacation.