Conflicting thoughts.

Don't worry about me if i'm not at home
my mind enjoys to wonder, my body begins to roam
two different paths, one walks towards the ocean
the other flies towards happiness, love, and devotion.

my flesh touches water, so cool to the touch
while my mind continues to look for the love i miss so much
Why is the cold ocean so easy to reach
and yet first i must cross a burning hot beach

one foot down, yellow burns your skin
no matter how hard you try, you'll never win.
so keep getting hurt, nobody is going to care
we all know that life here just isn't fair.

then the tide will rise, water wash over your heels
you're no longer being scortched, but now you can't feel
the ocean is too cold, numb as you touch
step out of the water, that which you wanted so much.

body disappointed, departs from ocean
but my mind doesn't notice, it's still in motion
but it's too high up, no air left to breathe
the clouds move in front, sun begins to leave

left in the darkness, don't know which way to go
slowly start to freeze, rain, then snow
weighed down by the world around, you fall to the ground
bury your face in your palms and beg to be found.