Fade to Black

I sit here thoughts going through my mind, Does this person really care?
Do you think they would even notice? I always think those questions I don't know why I do when I already know the answers.

No, they really don't care, and no they wouldn't notice, they would go on with their live as nothing even happened.
I sit alone in my room thinking, I should have done this 2 years ago when I lost the only person that ever truly cared, my mother
well if I go through with it, I wont get to see my mother, but at least I know, that I will be close.

I'm sitting in my room, lights out, totally dark, and I'm listening to Avenged, I take the blade and I run slowly down my arm,
I lay my head back and I think of all the nice things my family has said or done for me...Nothing comes to mind, I look down and the blood is pouring out and all the pain i feel is going away, I lay my head against my wall and listen to matt sing and close my eyes,
My world Fades to Black...