Left with nothing

cant belive after all we said we would go through to be together
cant believe after all we had already gone through
that all im left with is a brused and bloody hand
and cuts on my thigh and wrist
forever was a month
but i can say it was the best month of my life
i learned how to love in that time
i found out more of who i am
i learned how to lie
i found the guts to do what ive been meaning to do for 4 years
i finaly showed my friends who i really am
i LIVED
but now thats dead
i have to crawl back into my sorry excuse for a shell now
i have to relearn whats its like to not have anyone to talk to
i have to live with out your sweet lips
and the hugs that kept me safe from everything
I knew i shouldnt have made you my everything because
now that your gone im left with nothing