You told me never to say 'sorry' again. So Apologies.

And everything sounds so pathetic,
can't change my mind, i can't forget it.
I owe too much to leave it silent.
I owe you an explanation.

I'm so angry, you don't know why.
Tell me I'm not me, and I won't reply.
'cause I'm awful and I know it, and it's worse when i feel like this.
Ignore me if you must, I wont mind,
'cause i know it feels better when i'm not shouting all the time.

I can see another day, please don't hate me, will you stay?
'cause when I get there i'll need you to never go away.
I've been waiting and phoning, and are you mad at me?
I'm not going to shout, I want to say sorry.
I've been running, been screaming, been standing outside of your door.

Sometimes I just need, to let it go,
To be mad back and let them know,
No matter what I do, it's always wrong,
and I just can't hold it all in for very long.

I've been hurting and wishing and running away,
from every person, from everyday.
been hiding my feelings for so long that i need to say.
I'm sorry, I promise, I'll try not to yell,
and every time I do, I ask you to tell
me I'm stupid and that i should shut up or just go away.
'cause even though I know you don't like me at all., I like you i promise,
I'm just angry with the world.

Smile, laugh, shout then cry,
what makes me like this? I change my mind.
It's like I'm angry all the time and I can't understand.
I'm sorry. really. will you forgive me?