Painful Love - 2

I don’t know why I’m feeling so lonely
I’ve lost the will to live.
All my life has been a fake, a phony
But I have to ask: will you forgive?

Why should I be the one begging?
You’re the one who left me here!
This is the day I’ve been dreading
The day I cry my abundant tears.

How could you do this to me?
Wait, you did nothing.
You lived your life without heed
Towards me, the lonely being

All I wanted and ever asked for
Was a caring hand
Maybe a kiss, a hug, or even a few words
If that was all you could stand

I know I’m hideous and not in your standard
You only talk to me when you feel forced to
We’re only friends; how is that so hard?
Why won’t you let me love you?

I’ve listened to you when you were sad
Comforted you when you were crying.
Hell, I even made you glad
By threatening: “Be happy, before I start dying!”

You never heard my beautiful words
The truths that I’ve wanted to sing
I know that I’m weird and absurd
But those aren’t the only things.

I write magnificent poems of my emotions,
And stories of untold gratitude about you.
As you can see I have utter devotion
I’ll be faithful and loyal, it’s true!

You are this beautiful girl
Held in my locked gaze
Forever to escape me and never to be my world
I might as well, fade away
I can’t imagine a time
Where her voice has not been sounding
In my broken mind
It has always left me smiling.

Now here I say to you, my sweet
You have found your “final love.”
I will not hold you back for I am in defeat
And I won’t be feeling it, when I’m up in the Great Above.

Yes, that is true.
I’d rather die
Than live without you
Please, don’t cry.
Ha ha-ha; you really don’t care anyway!
Not tomorrow will you feel,
Nor any other day!
The pity you have, I humbly ask; please, conceal.