Feelings Suck

I'm not supposed to feel this way
Like I just need to go and cry (as if it would do me any good)
I'm not supposed to feel like I am somewhere I'm not
With someone else who left me
I'm not supposed to feel so attached to sombody who is not a part of me (But actually is)
I am not supposed to have these stupid thoughts, imaginations, and pathetic dreams that I'll turn around and they will be there
That I had fallen asleep in a car, during a class, or in a park somewhere
And it had all been a nightmare based on a fear
Or that they really came back just to see ME!, of all people, again
These feelings all trying to take a spot
All trying to rip me apart and see who does the most damage
These feeling all lead to one another
I don't want to feel anymore
But I am not suicidal
Cause as long as I live
Or anybody for that matter
All I will do is feel
I will always feel Happy smiles
sorrowful goodbyes
painful laughter
nostalgic moments
stupid jokes
perverted ones too
I will always feel sucky
Thats it feelings suck
ALL FEELINGS SUCK! NOT JUST SADNESS AND PAIN!

But love too.