His reasoning to your why

I know he has to love me
We lay together everynight
I always thought it was our love
That kept us warm.

His touch isn't for me
If it is for me
I don't want it anymore
For his love turned black.

He sleeps easy
He'll sleep eternal
I love him so..
I'll do it while he's sleeping.

I love him to death
I hate how this makes me feel
To crush that lying throat
To have him seeing God.

I would ask him to forgive me
But I have to forgive him first
I feel like I've gained a hollow victory
He is mine forever now, never to be hers.