Life after death

when i look at you i feel as though i belong.
like am yours my heart beats so fast.
my breath is slow and shallow and i feel as though i
am suffocating.
i have the feeling something pulling my heart
from my chest.
i loose my sight of everything but you.
i see love and kindness and it makes me
want to cry out of joy.
but i lost you somewhere out there i can't seem to get you back,
i need you.
the air i breathe is like toxic poison to my lungs.
it doesn't work anymore.
you were my life.
all i had to live for and now i lost you.