Emotions On Pause

What if I was someone different?
Would you see a special side to me?
I’m sick of feeling so repentant.
I’m over trying to make people see.

What ifs are all I think of when your around.
My heart shatters and breaks because of you.
My feet will never stay on the ground,
Through the tears I have a distorted view.

I would try and change to fit in
I want you to see the look in my eyes
I want to feel what its like to win
I want to look up into rainy skies.

It hurts to think about you
I cant stand all of the pressure I apply
I can never seem to follow this through
Your breaking my heart cause on you I rely

I can’t believe I want this that bad
I’m just another face in a crowd
Its actually kind of sad
But yet my heads still stuck in a cloud.

I guess I can never be who you want,
Although I will always wish I was
That’s something that will always haunt
But I guess all emotions can be put on pause.