Wanted (Never There)

Have you ever wanted something?
Knowing full well that it was bad,
Yet not having it in your grasp,
Only ever made you sad.

And the fact that you always see him,
And that he’s always smiling with glee,
Makes you just want to clutch at your stomach,
And ask yourself why me?

Or that you always notice,
Life just never works out,
And even though you wish it,
You know you won’t amount,

To the pressures you put on yourself,
To make him notice you,
And you think that he is looking,
Though it’s obviously never true.

You wish that he would finally see,
Just how much he means to you,
But that will never happen,
No matter how much it’s true,

You see I just wish he would realize,
I would be perfect for him,
But now I’m plunged into this ocean,
That he is forcing me to swim.

And I am more than happy,
To run laps just for him,
He could make me do anything,
Except forget about him,

Because he is so unique,
And people don’t understand,
They are a little put off at times,
But he is just a man.

Who has stolen my heart?
He has it with him always,
And that will never change.

But one thing is painfully,
Starting to come clear,
And though I try to mask it,
I can’t control the fear,

Because deep down I know,
It is so painfully true,
Out of everything in the world,
I was never meant to be with you.

And though I understand,
And try to take it like a man,
It still hard to admit the truth,

Because now I know
That is all we will be,
But that doesn’t stop the fact,
You mean the world to me.

And now I am spiraling out of control,
Don’t know where to go,
But I will say this;
I will always love you,
But you will never know

[I hate you because I love you so deal with it]