I'M BARELY 15

Why did this happen to me?
I'M barely 15
I just wanted to have fun
I didn't expect this!
I can't tell no one of what I did
They will criticize and probably kick me to the street
I feel so alone i have no one to hold
So I'm going to make a decision and ask for forgiveness
The pills I take will kill a life
But I have mine to hold
A sadness overwhelms me and I wonder why
Soon I cry bitter tears
For the child I thought I thought didn't love
Forgive for what I've done
On how stupid I was
But I'm Barely 15