how you will pay for it

i look around to see nothing,
nothing is around me.
i feel forwards, fingers first,
but no one is beside me.
i hear no noise.
i smell no scent.
my friends are gone.
my eyes are dead.

i wonder if this is the end.
if i am alone or am i dreaming.
i open my eyes and see your face,
everything is back in place.

but wait, your gone.
we see each other, but you stare.
i talk, you listen, then you ignore.
is this how my life is,
with no one listening, no one caring.
all my friends, acting like i'm not real.
until we met, i'm not there.
you look right through me, but notice me to.
you're trying to ignore me,
i'm trying to be understood.

my life is different, since that day.
you said you've loved me.
i said i love you too.
then we went our separate ways,
to see our families, our friends from home.
you ignored me when i phoned.
text me.
it was over.
you found someone else.

the pain was awful
when i learned that we were through.
i'll wait until i see you to tear you in two.
how could you do that when you knew how i was.
your only comfort knowing the vodka was out of my reach.
how you will pay for it when we both meet.
how you will pay for it when you see what you did.