forever

Tears fall as the blood flows.
Every scar a memory.
Every tear a scar to come.
But nobody notices.
Nobody cares.
Addicted to the feeling.
The bliss.
The pain
The spit second of no thoughts.
Knowing I can feel it when I like.
I can do anything behind a locked door.
Drink myself stupid.
Cut myself to pieces.
Cry myself to sleep.
Then live life normally the next day.
As if nothing had happened.
All a dream until I look at my artwork.
Every stroke a bad memory or thought.
Carried everywhere with me.
All over my body.
I will always remember.
When others have forgotten.
It will always be with me.
Reminding me that I am nothing.
I will always be nothing.
Putting myself through hell to save others.
Saving them the hassle of losing me.
I’m there physically.
Mentally I’m slipping away.
Forever.