Is it so bad?

Why am I so afraid
Of some trap that may have been laid?
I don't even know if it's there
But I always feel I have to prepare
There's a rollercoaster
And it's bowling me over
I'm falling into this new abyss
That others know as bliss

Is it so bad that I'm so scared?

I'm so terribly horrified
That he could have possibly lied
I don't even know if it's true
And I have no clue what to do
I'm falling into the pits of despair
And I find I'm gasping for air
What do I do when I feel
That nothing is real?

Is it so bad to be unprepared?

Help me find out why I
Can't look them in the eye:
These males that I fall for
These foolish men I can't help but to adore
What is it that makes me stare?
What is it that makes me care?
I'm falling so hard
But I'm afraid of the hurt

Is it so bad for me to stare?

Can anyone else tell me
Why they whisper things that cannot be?
Who is it they think I am
Do they really think I'd fall for a scam?
I'm falling so hard right now
And I don't even know how
Is it really all a joke, I wonder
This feeling ripping my world asunder?

And is it so bad for me to finally care?
And is it so bad for to be so unprepared?
And to always stare?
And is it really so bad to be so scared?

Is it so bad to finally love someone
And be afraed that they'll soon be gone?