Where I stand

I wonder if those things you said,
have anything to do,
with me or how we feel toward,
one another, I have no clue.

So can't you please just tell me,
what it is you feel,
so I can know for once and for all,
what is actually real.

You see I sometimes make things up,
convince myself they're true,
but they're just disbelieving thoughts,
they do not come from you.

But how is it I believe such things,
ones that don't exist,
It must be the idea of you not liking me,
that I'm striving to resist.

So all these stories, these thoughts I imagine,
deep within my mind,
I pray one day I'll see they're real,
and thruth in them i'll find.

But for now, maybe all i'll get,
is a hi here and there,
i'll try not to complain, but appreciate,
for things may grow from here.