Mom's Gone. Dad's Struggling Along.

I can't believe you did this mom.
You just left, you were completely gone.
You didn't even care.
It came out of no where.
I always looked up to you,
When I was growing up.
Then I got to know you,
I hate that your my mom.
When I was little,
I always thought I'd grow up to be just like you,
Now I can only wish that I won't.
I thought you were the one who'd always be there,
Who'd hold my hand.
But that wasn't you.
That was Megan, dad and Sam.
You left us, mom!
For someone who's 25 years younger than you!
Someone who's Sam's friend!
Mom, why did you do this to us?
Why did you have to hurt us?
You used to leave in the middle of night,
I never knew where you were.
I could hear daddy cry,
I didn't know why.
Sam and Megan always looked stressed,
You made this fucking family a mess!
You were always yelling,
I was too young to understand.
I always thought you'd be my best friend.
But you never cared, mom.
You left us for someone else,
You cheated on dad.
You didn't have to see the pain and everything else that we went through.
I really hate you.
But now since you left,
Dad's struggling yo clean up your mess.
And I can't help but remember at the court,
You wanted custody of us.
I don't know why, it's not like you cared anyways.
You just wanted to see dad hurt,
Why!? He loved you.
We all did.
But, I had to testify against you mom.
Do you know what that was like?
I had to talk shit about you,
Like I didn't care about you.
I had to watch you listen with tears in your eyes.
I had to remember, this was your choice.
I cried, mom! I cried!
I tell everyone I'm so much better without you.
I tell everyone I can barely stand you.
But sometimes I really miss you.
I didn't think I'd have to grow up without a mom.
I bet you wish that you were apart of our lives.
To see Sam walk down the isle.
You probably wish you could see Megan go off to college.
I bet you wish you could watch me dance now, mom.
I'm like a pro now, mom.
And even though we're so much happier that your gone,
I sometimes miss you.
I sometimes cry because it gets so hard.
I want to be strong like dad,
I want to be like dad.
I don't want to be like you, mom.
And, as reality sets in,
I see what type of life we'll live,
Without you, mom.
And without you mom, I feel so alone.
But I'll never let you know,
What it's like to be alone.
Cause I'm sure you already know.