komm susser tod (come sweet death)

am i dead or alive?
i can barely decide
as this darkness grows inside
it makes me and my insides writhe
with pain and thoughts of suicide
all i can say is komm susser tod
like a blood orchid flower bud

thud i hit the floor
like the emo kid with knife and blood whores
splattering the walls with red blood gore
i turn my back and shut the door
i'm bleedin and pleadin on the floor
i don't feel the love in your kiss anymore

i remember these days as dark as night
where i was ready to give up the fight
everyone told me to get on with my life
they told me to sing with ease
tryin to fix my soul thats diseased

this darkness is crushing and suffocating
and my tears keep falling as if its raining
they point blamingly at no-one but me
now as it all turns black and time goes slack
i wonder forevermore why did i go back to my knife and blood whores
splattering on my bedroom walls
now i haunt these halls
forevermore