Thank You

Siting on a bench
Wanting to end everything
Wanting to be alone
Wanting to live a life that doesn't involve anyone but yourself

Hearing those words
My dear friend cried
Cried for me when I couldn't

At that time I was thinking; "Stupid! Don't cry"
But then again, I wanted to smile to her and sweetly say; "Thank you"
No one ever cared enough for me, to cry for me
It's my problem not yours
Don't cry anymore, okay?

I was lonely, but I couldn't cry
Some where in my heart, it told me; "You're going to be okay"
I didn't care less about what would happen

At that moment I actually already wanted to cry
I was about to
Then, you showed up
You looked so worried going back and forth on the same path
Carefully peeking
Looking towards my direction
You were obviously worried about me even if you always tease me

How can you care for me?
Ever since I found out about my feelings
I have coldly ignored you
Yet, you care for me when you know I'm truly sad

I gave up at that point
I gave up wanting to be alone and now I'm happy

Thank you, both of you.

My dearest friend and the man that I have secretly loved.