Schizophrenia

I hear the laughter of too long ago
Replaying me
The moments of
Nervous hands
Finding each other
Beating hearts
Keeping time together
Shallow breath
Stolen from one another
Whispering to me to
Never let go
And remember everything
That was ever had
In such a spontaneous and
Endearing way

I hear the sounds of infinite silence
Speaking to me
Over loud scenes of memory of
Broken smiles
That won't play a tune
Disappointed eyes
That change the view
Beating hearts anxious over you
Telling me that
I need to move on
And forget everything
That I thought we ever had
In such a naive and
Hopeful way

I hear the beat of my heart
Telling me to
Listen to these tales of
Eager smiles
That are genuine and intriguing
Nervous laughs
That are slow and calming
Subtle sentences
That are touching and flirty
Showing me I
Can put my mistakes away
And enjoy everything
That first impressions have
In such a fresh and
Simple way

I hear voices of conflicting views
Insisting htat I
Act upon the
Wonderful moments
That we once shared
Melodious ranting
That you never heard
Interesting facinations
That make my heart stir
Arguing with me about
What stage I am at
And whether it still matters
That you and I had anything
In such a crazy and
Regretful way