singing through the heartache

I hate this part,
the bit in between,
when everything has broken at the seams.
Longing for the return,
of all the broken dreams,
sung in silent screams.

You taught me to fight for what I wanted,
but then tried to stop me before the end.
The reality is, I'm afraid to say
you're just as bad as my metal friend.

Two ways to go,
I want them both,
but none of them are right.
Ill stay clear of the day,
and the hurt it brings
go back to the deepest night.

You made me feel again,
what I never thought I would.
I'd rather feel the pain it brings,
when the metal cuts the flesh.
For then I don't remember you,
as the pain begins to sing.

I love you but I hate you,
how ironic is that.
I need you, the death of me.
I may be stupid I don't care,
its not easy to forget you.
And for the first time I see.

Do you know how much
you meant to me?
How could you?
Did you mean what you said,
or was it a lie?
If only you knew...

I love you but I hate you...what's a girl to do?