losing you, missing you: my heart hurts.

5 months passed by,
i tried not to cry,
each day praying you wouldn't die,
now to see you i have to look into the sky.

time went along,
i tried to stay strong,
listening to your favourite song,
in my heart you will always belong.

as each day passed you went further downhill,
gradually getting more and more ill,
taking pill after pill,
but now were here, reading your will.

i try to be optimistic,
but i couldn't help but be pessimistic,
i should of stayed realistic,
i dont want to be so materialistic.

shock after schock,
you stayed strong as an ox,
refusing to wear them special socks,
now its all over and you've come home in a box. =[

i miss you, my heart hurts,
but my life has to go on, friends, families, boys and concerts,
i love you nan, always have always will.
R,I.P, i miss you still. x