Contradiction?

Are you the reason?
The reason I'm suffocating?
From the inside?
Pillow smothering?

No more oxygen?
No more to live off of?
No more to feel?
No more to help?
Mo more to have?

or.

Are you the excuse?
Something to blame?
something to show?
Something to believe?

Yes, I'm insane.
Yes, It's my fault.
Yes, I hurt.
Yes, I admit it.
Yes, I can't do it.

No, It's not your fault.