Near suicide times.

Rose petals fall from the sky as I walk through a field of flowers, a big smile on my face

My life seemed perfect

If it wasn't in reality.

I've been tempted to take the knife sitting at my bedside and jam it through my heart.

No on knows the battle I'm going through

People try to help

But there's nothing to help.

Sure I would like help,

But I have to fight this on my own

Even if it may result in death

My aunt hates me

My life is shitty

I just want it all to end.

Never have I wanted something to end so much

But, I don't want to die, I just want it all to end.

I want to go into a deep slumber that I'll never wake from.

And maybe everything would be better.

I've always felt that everyone that I know's lives would be better without me.

It seems, as of right now,

I have nothing to live for.

My best friend hates me

My aunt is really mad at me

My mom is barely ever home because of her job.

There is not a day I don't cry about everything.

I've been tempted to cut myself.

But I refuse to.

I just wish it would all end.