do you want to play a game?

I wanted to make you something beautiful
You smiled and said thank you
Walking out of class I noticed it in the garbage
Crumpled in a ball of mixed and mingled colors no one can comprehend what they had once been
What they had said
I only wanted to be good like you
Be praised by you
Be loved like you
Have the gifts you have
Because I'm selfish

I'm tired of the games
The dance of my body braced on instable swings
Suspended over an eternity
The games make me weak
To weak to protest when they say I should leave you alone
She’s changed you know
How it will affect me I do not know
All of these sounds clashed crammed in my ears
Making everything how you want it to appear
Did you mean to make me stop being friends with her?
Was this all part of your well plotted, well devised plan?
Did you know that if you said that I would never do that?
That I would say the things I said
Tell me blood stained angel!
Are we as innocent as we charade?
Sure we are all able to sleep well at night
Undaunted by our fears of being caught in the utmost lies of cruel fate
The twisted traps and scorching desserts of life
Am I just a bright thing in the sky to look at when you feel like it but when you grow tired, when I shine the brightest wanting your help, just drop the drape and disappear from view?
The complicated labyrinth of stars awaits you,
Try to find your way into my head now.
The curtain ripped
The hands are stained
Now it's my turn to say

Do you want to play a game?