It should be a sin

It was harder than I ever thought
My braking point caught
Caught on camera forever
Nothing there as a lever
My spirit, my heart lost
I would have done anything for you, no matter the cost
Everyone says they love you
My heart beaten black and blue
I wanted to scream, I wanted to cry
My hopes washed dry
Everything seems is pain
It is hard to stay sane
But still I smile everyday
Listening to every word you say
I wake to see you
You make me feel emotions that are new
The line between love and hate is thin
It should be a sin
To love you so
And see you as my worst foe