You always bleed the first time

I invited him in
Is it time?
I think he loves me, as much as I love him
I should be ready.

He'll make a woman out of me
He'll love me forever after this
I'm sure of it
Just as I'm certain how much I love him.

This isn't right
He's too forceful, we should stop
No means no right?
Get off and get out.

Stop, the last time I would ask
He hurts me because I won't let him love me
Love me like he wants to, like I thought I wanted him to
That knife seems appropriate.

I penetrated him
I went deep, hard, and fast
He cried out as I slammed it in harder
It must have felt good, for he had tears in his eyes

The knife is cold
His blood is warm
I said no
I said no.