everything and nothing at the same time

i'm afraid of what you'll do
and what you won't say
i wish it was too late to say sorry
but your apology would always be accepted
everything i do depends on you
and everything i lose is another thing i might lose of you
but haven't i already lost enough?
i'd rather lose it all
then lose this small sense of pride i still have
i'm wasting away my life
nothing is going to happen. nothing is going to change.
people like me do not get second chances.
people like me don't get to be happy, no matter how hard they try.
it's too late for me.