Scream That I Love You

I scream it silently 'til the tears reach my eyes
I wipe them away and block out the lies
These lies cannot be told to oneself:
You always know the truth at the back of the shelf.

The problem I get when I argue with me
Is that I know I don't like what this feeling might be
Each side of me wins this one-sided battle
And I start to cry and my hearing is rattled

The overwhelming problem I've got
Is that he is here, yet you are not
I've said all the lies to push both away
But you're the one I wish could just stay

She's got you, she holds you, she whispers sweet things
And then all I can feel is the pain my heart brings
I like you, I love you, I'm sure that it's true
But I highly doubt that I will ever tell you

Just remain by my side, even just as a friend
Be there for me until all else does end
Because I love you, I love you, and I want you to know
That I'm too scared to really let my heart go

So I sit here screaming silently in the night
Hugging my pillow close and closing my eyes tight
The tears blurred my vision and my heart wrenched in two
And all I want is to scream that I love you.