Thoughts At Your Gravestone

Trying to remembr every word that you said,
because they seemed to have escaped my head.
Now I feel terrible
and I fear to say this
it's something I dread.
This feeling inside me,
it's nothing, it's dead.
Now I wish your words would come back to my head,
maybe they'd erase this state of mind.
Because now it seems like
nothing's alligned.
No, it seems everything's wrong,
and now it won't be long
before I go and mess up something perfectly fine.
And I know,
this is just a waste of my time,
but it shouldn't take long.
I just wanted to say that, if you wouldn't mind,
could you come back to me?
Even if just in my mind,
I need to hear the words you said.
Instead of this feeling,
the numbness I dread.
Maybe somehow things will get better,
instead
of this.
But I know, this is just in my head.
What was I thinking?
I could never change this,
the fact that you're dead.
But I can't shake the feeling,

I wish your words would come back to my head...
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This made a great impact, the fact that you're here.
How can someone so distant now be so near?
Being in your presence erases my fear,
and I think you should know,
you're the one person I truly hold dear.
You need to know,
that if I could help it, I'll never let you go.
No, I'll stay with you,
I'd never want to throw this away.
You're the one thing
that keeps this numbness at bay.
And even if I do lose this today,
I want you to know,
I now remember what you'd say.
Oh, I must be dreaming,
how else could it be true?
Just to have this great feeling,
I hope it never fades away.
Because without you,
I feel alone.
What do I do?
Because now, it's comimg back, my numbness;
alone.
But beyond fact and fiction, beyond real and false,
I somehow had known.
This couldn't last long.
No, I guess I'm, just reliving the past.
But, I don't want to move on,
and without you,
I don't think I can stay strong.
Now, it's all fading so fast, this dream that I'm having,
it's leaving,
it's gone.
No!
Withought you, I don't think I belong.
You're my everything,
but despite a wonderful feeling so strong,
There's no way to change the fact that you're gone.
I can't live with that,
the fact that it's gone.
Even though you told me to believe and stay strong.
I never got to let you know ;

I Loved You All Along.
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