Sew Myself Shut

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All of which I will never know
Walking away into the unknown

That bitter taste that I'm ready to spit out
I'd escape this life if I had enough doubts.

Forced to face the world again
Walking forward with my eyes closed
I can't stare into reality
Without wanting running the other way.

Never once was it clear
Losing the feeling of being real
Fading into what makes sense
As everything between you & the world collapses.

And I already hate it
But I'll still take it

I have no choice or real intent.
Choking, I'm reaching out as far as I can
But maybe this was never worth it at all.

I'm still asking why, but these scars run deep
This is my fault so I'm taking the heed
Blinded & stranded
Let's see how far I get
That's when I'll be something;
Thestrongest person I've ever met.

E.P.