Seventeen

streamers fall all around,
alcohol in left hand,
ciggare in the other,
laughing and dancing,
having a blast,
i am seventeen at last.

Before i know though,
i am gone,
eyes a blur, screaming over and over
my ears are hurting, my head is killing
my mother yelling my name.

Red splatters everywhere,
visions fading, i remember it all,
hell would be better,
find me inside me,
love me and hold me,

i died when i was seventeen.