My Own Worst Enemy

i am my own worst enemy.
i want nothing and everything at once.
i bite the hand that feeds, and poison the helpfull.
i curse and praise in the same breath.
i am feared by all and loved by little, but in return i love little and hate most.
those who come into my life are often pushed out.
i often push one part of me, the good, into hiding, so no one can break my outer shell, which shields me.
i am one and the same.
i am my closest alli, and my own worst enemy.