I Saw My Memories Float Away With Dirty Flaws

In one day,
I'll be obsessed,
My mama says,
You'll hate my guts,
Oh, Honey, I,
I wish it weren't true
Coz she said there wasn't
Much left to see,
But I saw my childhood
Float away
With the dust particles
I blew away
While tryin' to get
That vanity from the basement;
I saw the photo books
And the empty cigarette packs
The ugly green desk,
That held the secret of my crushes
Secrets I couldn't keep
My concerns galore
And my forgetful mind;
And it broke my heart
When she broke that lamp
Coz I remember playin' pool
My brother lettin' me cheat
And I remember writing you letters
I knew I would never send,
But I promised myself regaurdless,
I'd put them with the mail,
Just a promise
Never to be kept
As I wiped down the black medal,
I remembered my sister's old room
The bright blue walls
And lace curtains I ripped,
The bed my best friend broke
And the diary I read
I had to watch all the memories leave
And I had to watch them drive away,
So now,
I'm all alone
The only hobby I have
Is being alone
Watchin' the dust blow away