I've Never Liked Those Southern Towns Anyway...

I don't like over used words,
I guess I'm just redundant like that.
Saying words that I don't know,
I sound smarter than I may be.

I wear cheery colors,
just to seem happier than I might be.
And I use to wear my hair up
but now it's grown awkward on me.

I don't wear red lipstick
my lips seem full enough without confusing shades.
And I don't mind rainy days,
so long as I'm not caught in the flood.

I cringe when I think of the south,
but it's not my fault.
Now a days, I just want to forget it all.

I won't look into mirrors past nine
I'm just scared I'll see a face
that is not mine, stare back at me,
angrily.

I make believe,
that I have more friends than I actually do
and every night before I sleep
we all talk about everything that we want.

I pretend my family is never home
so I can get some peace.
While I love them with everything in me,
I know both sides are counting down
until I'll some day leave this town.

I don't know whose to blame
for why I act like this.
And I don't know who to listen to
when I'm feeling low.
But I think that I was made this way for a reason.

And if they can't see it.
I'll just have to walk on my own
like I've been doing
until I find everything I've lost.