Truth

I stare.
I stare, until my eyes are sore.
I’m jealous, so jealous that it eats away inside of me.
I have ever changing feeling about you.

I hate you.
I always have hated you, for what you did to me.
You hurt me so badly.
I wanted to die; I wish I could have found a way.
You said you always wanted me around.
Forever, but that was just a lie.
A lie, a lie that ate its way into my head.
It’s driven me insane.
I can’t stand it, I just can’t anymore.
You are a liar.
I am a liar.

The lies seem like the truth to me.
The façade I put on my face daily.
You’ll never know the truth.
No one will ever know the truth.
Because, my life is a lie, just one big huge lie.
But now, it’s the lie that is the truth.
And the truth that is the lie.
I can hardly tell them apart anymore.
I will just have to find, some way out.
So I continue to stare, and stare.
Until you look at me, and I look away.
When you look away, I will continue to stare: I will stare until my eyes fall out of all the jealousy that runs through my veins.