Finding God

I looked for him,
I looked for God.
But no matter how hard I try,
He won't show himself to me.

I want to give up,
Just stop this never ending journey.

But I want to believe,
Believe that things will get better.
That God will prove himself,
But that's not happening.

What happens if I give up?
I'll probably live out my days,
Not having faith in anyone,
Not even myself.

I wonder why,
It is so easy for most people to believe.
Why should I have to try?

I need faith,
Someone to believe in.
So that I know I'm safe.

I have so many questions,
That need answering,
But no one to talk to.

Is is this hard for everyone?
Or is it just this way for me?
I wonder,
If I'm doing something wrong?