My final goodbye

My life was depressing when you were here.
And it's worse now that you're gone.
I try to act like I never cared.
But the truth is that I'm scared.
I've never felt this way before.
Every time we fought my heart tore.
At the seems...
I don't know what this means.
At first I didn't care.
It was all just a dare.
But as time went on.
I started to grow fond.
Fond of you.
But I was full of pain, from all the stupid shit you'd do.
And when you left me that sunny day.
I wasn't sure if I should be sad or happy.
But now you're gone.
And it doesn't matter.
You get no more chances.
I let you in...
I let you win.
You took my heart.
And just when I thought I could trust you, you tore it apart.
How could I be so stupid?
Must've been that stupid cupid.
Seems like when you're around,
I can't think,
I can't speak,
I can't do anything.
I think I'm in love, but I don't want to be.
Why can't I just see...
That you're no good for me.
You make me mad.
You make me sad.
You make me suicidal.
Then you have the last laugh.
As my body lays there cold on the floor.
You laugh about what you've done.
I can't take this anymore.
So tonight...
I end my life...
I take this knife..
I think of every word you ever said to me...
Every lie.
Everything I wanted to believe inside.
And now I die.
This will be my final goodbye.