The pain of the failure (yet again)

The world swims before my eyes
I feel the panic rising
Pushing sense away from me

I failed before I began
And the fear bubbles inside
Why does this happen to me

The panic is always there
Making work all the harder
Every word stabs my soul

Why won’t the pain disappear?
I’m struggling to make sense
I’m a pathetic failure

Yet again I am useless
Yet again I’m pathetic
Yet again I’ve ruined things