Vulnerable

I never wanted to like you.
I tried so hard; I swear.
I pushed the weight away,
But now it’s too much to bear.

I really, really, hate it.
I want this feeling to go away.
I’m doing my best to ignore it,
But it’s like keeping a hurricane at bay.

I want the hurt to stop;
I want the pain to ease.
You’re the last person I’d fall for,
I’ve never liked the tease.

I’ve tried to lie to myself.
I want more than anything to deny it.
I don’t want to be vulnerable.
Why is it impossible to defy it?

I see your face looking back at me
Every time I close my eyes.
I feel so weak and helpless.
I know you’ll make me cry.

I don’t want to give in.
I wish I could let you go.
I don’t want to admit it,
But I need you more than you know.