Betrayal

I’m sorry for betraying you
Because you don’t even know what I did
It was so horrible and cruel that
I knew I could never tell you

And you’re looking at me and wondering
What happened
And the worst part is
Is that you’re blaming yourself.

But it’s not your fault
Not even close
This is all on me
But I’m a coward

And I can’t bare the thought of losing you
So I’m clinging on but pushing away
I can’t look you in the eyes
And you keep asking me what’s the matter

I tell you nothing’s wrong
And you believed me at first
But you’re trusting me less and less
Because you know something’s not right

I want you to hate me
I want you to leave me
You deserve better
I’m so sorry