Just Sleep

Can someone please shoot me? Because I don't feel right anymore.
I could say anything. Anything and it would sound like lies.
I'm falling out. And I'm falling down. Hard.
I don't know what to say anymore, because I don't know how to feel.
I want to sleep my life away. I want to fall down again.
This time I want you to be gone, and not be back to scoop me up.
Don't give me the drive to stand up again, because I'm tired now.
The bottom has never looked so nice. The walls know my name now.
I want them so badly.
I'm tired of the slipping for now I want to crash.
Either give me the will to stand or leave me alone to fall but I can't take this hovering anymore.
I'm growing sick of the pain and ill of the shakes.
Food makes me sick and the comparisons hurt.
Stop asking me questions when you don't want to listen to the answer.
And don't be mad when I don't speak. Sometimes I can't. Sometimes I physically can't.
So let me sleep.
Let me fall.
Let me fall without dreaming.
And when I grow ill I don't want hyllusinations.
Because it all looks like life till you wake up.
And I don't want to wake up.
So let me sleep