Talked Down To The Felling In My Bones

I was a thought out mistake,
A lesson in creativity:
You were jealous of how
He smooth talked me,
But I hated every minute of me;
It fucked with my head
And made me see stars;
I saw so much potential,
I saw so much grace,
You were my one
Special talent,
And only I knew what to do
With you:
I flirted and teased,
Lied through my teeth;
I slept through
All of the lazy days
Filled with smoke
And the sweet smell of weed:
You said I was jealous
Of everything you became,
But please, he
Would have chosen me,
If I hadn't had a blank stare
Grace my large eyes;
You're turnin' red
From all those things I said
In that one regretful night
Of rock n' roll;
You could have sung me to sleep
As I puked out my
Entire night;
You said times are
Spiraling out of control
And I'm making you lose your mind,
You won the game,
I made up:
Electric with out an amp
And enticing with out the words,
It was all I could ever do;
His lies
Are splattered on my floor
And my feet are in the way,
Because you're dancing
In the little prevarications
I told him to leave behind,
I wanted you to be safe,
Coz I knew how he acted
When they were around,
He said I'm considered lucky,
That I can still see him
In the nights
When he leaves you all alone
And I feel it in my bones,
He's knockin' on my door