Flaws

Why can't i see the beauty in me today?
It's amazing how,
there's reassurance and hope but there are always flaws.
How can I be at peace with these flaws?
How can I settle this feeling of un-fulfilment,
of unhappiness, of unwanted yet forced space?
I try to breathe and for a bit i breathe a sigh of relief.
It eats at me, this jealousy
but within a night it's.. gone.. or hidden away ?
Why must i be so unsure, unsettled, insecure?
Can't i just be happy, be free..
it's not about that,
this is about me.