It Hurts

Everything hurts.
All of you.
You cause me so much pain.
But you don't know.
How could you?
I hide here.
Broken and crying
Behind my mask of
Joy.
You couldn't know
Just how much...
How much misery I'm going through.
I don't want you to know.
No reason for you to suffer along with me.
But it hurts.
It all hurts.
So much pain and sorrow.
I can't even tell
Where one begins
And the other ends
Anymore.
It's all simply a black abyss.
It's numbing.
This blackness.
Almost a sanctuary.
Almost...
But I know.
It won't last long.
These things never do.
God...
It hurts...
So bad....