Do I Worry You?

Do I worry you?
It doesn't seem possible
That I could.
I work so hard
To keep my mask up.
I do'nt want you to worry.
I don't like it
When people worry over me.
But I don't think that I'm worrying you.
You don't seem to realize
that I'm not alright.
Thats ok though.
Thats how I want it.
Even though it hurts
to see that you don't care.
It's ok.
Because I'm not
Making you worry.
I'm not
Interferring in your life.
Unlike others.
I worried someone else
Today.
Se seems so scared for me.
She says I need help.
I need to talk
To someone.
Someone
Besides her.
I know who I wish I could talk to.
I wish
I could talk
To you.
But I don't think I can.
I don't know
If you'll listen.
I know you said that
You care.
You even said that
I worry you.
I wish I could believe that
More than I actually do.
I wish
I could find the courage
To tell you all these things.
So many things
That I want you to know.
But I'm just too scared.
I'm so afraid
Of losing you.
I'm also afraid
Of losing my chance
And forever wondering
"What if?"
Contradiction hurts so bad.
But I'm dealing with it.
Just like all the other hurts.
I'm dealing with it.
I'm doing it on my own.
I don't want to be alone.
I want help,
But no one seems
To be taking me
Seriously.
Especially you.
I wish that you would.
I wish that I could find a way
To make you believe me.
To make you listen
To what I'm trying to say.
I wish that you would be the one
To help me.
But even if I ask...
I wonder if you'll listen.
So let me start
By asking you this...
Again...
Do I
Worry you?