One Trigger

The trigger

Deep within it coils.
Around my mind.
Bending my will.
Severing my spine.

I’ve come so close to success.
To have it ripped away.
One trigger.
Making me lose it all.

My demon deep within.
Struggles to get out.
Biting and feeding on me.
Holding me prey.

I’ve cried over him.
And I’ve cried for him.
A deep confusion I can’t shake.
He’s here with me always.

Awaiting his escape.
He’s suffocated me to the point,
Where I didn’t believe I could return.
And yet he’s brought me back every time.

Just to do it over,
And over again.
I’ve fought 7 years to vanquish him.
And had no purchase.
Fought 7 years to dissolve him.
And still all it takes,
Is one trigger.